pirana: Girls Night Out

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this was one special night for me. as most of you know how i was not all that friendly with this particular bunch of girls, i still went with pride. to be honest a week before this outing, Tien invited me to join even though she knew about the whole situation about them and i not being friends anymore but i wasn't willing to. what changed my mind was when the big day arrived, Kyean invited me to join them for the night. even with the invitation, i still couldn't make my mind up whether to go or not. anyway in the end i did and until now, i don't regret it! you can say, "i mean whats the big deal? this whole outing is for Li Tien not anybody else" but still u know, i don't like feeling left out and i'm so not frigging thick skin to just go and get crash at their party! i know some people would do it cause they're so incredibly desperate for friends but i would never be so pathetic to just tag along when i know that they don't have a liking for me. so thick skin meh?

anyway, throughout the night everyone acted like everything between us was fine and all, i think that was really cool how we could actually get along after the drastic change in Feb. you know i've noticed alot of things have changed this year. i guess everyone starts to move on at this point you know, which is sometimes is for the better. your great example.. me, who just stopped hanging out with the people i use to hang with for years! look at me now, i'm good friends with ppl who i never really had chance to get to know because i've been hanging out in a gang where we tend to not hang with other ppl but ourselves. no doubt i loved hanging in a closed group! we were very comfortable with each other and we could click so well. i mean isn't that normal? alot of ppl ask me, "isn't it better if you were to hang with them rather then having to be alone during break and lunch?"

guess what? i would rather be a loner than go hanging with a bunch of ppl who ignore me, i mean isn't that like even worse? you'll not only feel left out but also so hurt inside. unfortunately i'm not the type to show you my emotion and feelings towards something, i would just keep everything inside and just ache like crap, especially in this case.. which is not good btw. that was the reason why the slightest thing she did snapped my last nerve. sometimes i really don't know who to blame, but i knew it was for the best.. not hanging out with them would make me feel so much happier and this whole thing gave me the green light to move on. don't get me wrong though, i never thought any of this would actually happen but it did and i was pretty disappointed in them.

So that night for me was some sort of forgiving and leaving the past behind thing. yes, confessions were made and patching things up as well. but you know somethings i just can't forgive entirely.

Now i'm really glad things are cool and the coldness between us has faded.

okay so here comes the awesome part of this post!